So. I have a new project.
Again.
Shelving another project.
Again.
I believe I’ve been project hoping until something feels… right. At first, it felt like a cop-out: I wasn’t dedicated, structured, or disciplined enough to complete the existing manuscript. Those are large words to swallow… because they all boil down to “I think I’m not good enough.”
2011 has been a year of discovery for me, and the veneer is slowly chipping away. I’m proud to say I am good enough. I have stories. Ideas. Scribbles. Scraps of phrases. Mental pictures. Things well enough to make my toes occasionally curl in joy because I wrote that – not someone else.
I even found the cover art of my future book. Who cares if it’s two or ten years away?
The block revolved around finding the right story; the one that makes my fingers itch and my legs twitch and my brain get fuzzy and hazy. Not to jinx anything, but I think I’ve found it.
It’s been invigorating. More than any other project. Maybe because it’s so personal. Maybe it’s because I finally feel well enough in my writer brain to accept this draft needs words on a page so I can rearrange them the way I picture them.
A healthy mental space. I dare say it is more important than the best atmosphere, writing utensils, or schedule.
Kayla Olson
August 15, 2011 at 3:22 pm
Yay, new blog post! Yay, new idea + new draft! Yay for BEAUTIFUL potential future book covers! <3 Proud of you, and I like the progress bar out to the side!
Melissa
August 15, 2011 at 3:57 pm
Thank you, thank you <3
& um, that progress bar is definitely from the last Dorian draft, not the Revisited. But veryyy soon!
goddesskate
August 15, 2011 at 4:29 pm
Yes!
Liza Kane
August 15, 2011 at 7:00 pm
Yay! I LOVE this post! ^_^ and YES YOU ARE GOOD ENOUGH!
XO
J.C
August 15, 2011 at 9:05 pm
You are totally good enough
I’m so pleased you found the novel that fits you right now, the one that makes you feel some zing. Happy writing!
jannatwrites
August 16, 2011 at 12:18 am
I’m glad you found something that you are connected to. It will certainly show in your writing. Good luck!
thefallenmonkey
August 16, 2011 at 6:16 am
That’s a special sort of *magic* you’re feeling there – the story has been there waiting for you, and you’ve just tapped into it! So run with it! Write, girl, write! Write like the wind!